This weekend was full of disappointments for me, i never believed in jinx before but after this unforgettable weekend, i now do. Here's the reasons why:
1. I have debt collectors left and right, and i don't have any idea on how to pay them. I know this problem is self-inflicted because i overlooked my finances, but it doesn't reached this level before that even if i work for 24 hours straight for 3 months I couldn't pay all my bills.
2. Since i decided to add another job to augment my income (I started to sell real estate, condo projects), and i thought i had a good start (i sold 2 condo units in my first week), all my dreams was shattered yesterday when the clients backed out.
3. I realized am already turning 34 on tuesday, broke, don't have a relationship, barely have any real friends, and my boss in the insurance company is breathing down my neck for new accounts, which I'm so pissed but i couldn't do anything about it because i know that i also needed new accounts to make ends meet.
4. It's so gloomy this sunday, for which my plan of cleaning my room, doing domestic errands, planning my week didn't become a reality. I'm so lazy, i just stared at my laptop downloading porn half of the day, and working out like a zombie at the gym the whole afternoon, which is such a waste because i couldn't stop eating chocolates in between.
5. I couldn't sleep without popping sleeping pills since friday because am so stressed out with what's happening with my life now...almost at the verge of being depressed...
The only saving grace for me this weekend was the homily at church this afternoon. It's that God will never ever forsake us, He will always be there to take care of us, He takes care of even the most useless creature in this world. I was assured that I shouldn't be afraid of what's happening in my life now because I know that there's a reason for all of the disappointments am experiencing now....
Now, to be honest, I am now looking forward the upside of my life...=)
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